MAITRE ALCHIMISTE

Four years ago, just after my breakup, I met my karmic relationship. Several months of tumultuous, chaotic, and difficult-to-manage relationship that ultimately offered me an unprecedented opportunity for spiritual, personal, and emotional growth.

At the time, I didn't know it, but we were in an avoidant/anxious attachment pattern. I was in a fragile period of my life, lost and searching for stability. Unbeknownst to me, I experienced the effects of "love bombing," a manipulative tactic where someone uses an excessive amount of compliments, affection, and attention to quickly seduce and gain emotional control over another person.

I received letters and gifts every day. Then, one day in September 2019, two months after we met, I received a giant love letter. I felt flattered, honored, and far from imagining that his behavior would turn abusive, eventually escalating to physical violence.

For a year, I desired to rid myself of the emotional weight carried by that letter. However, as an alchemist at heart, I didn't want to destroy it but transform that dark yet enriching period of my life into a work of art.

I was going to burn the letter, naked, in the manner of Delacroix's painting, "Liberty Leading the People."

When I set off for Transition, I knew we would have a full moon in the middle. I brought the letter with me. Little did I know that I would meet Charlie Hauser and that from that undeniable connection would emerge one of the most beautiful and profound artistic endeavors of my entire life.

Here is a little piece of poetry from that unforgettable experience, proving me that pain can only be transformed to be fully released.

On Saint Anne's Day, as the moon reaches its first quarter in Scorpio, under the benevolent influence of Leo, a cosmic alchemy unfolds within me. A call of destiny to transcend the past and awaken the creative force that lies dormant in my center.

During the Transition retreat, aligned within the trinity of my whole being, supported and trusting, I chose to burn this letter.

In the intimacy of a full moon morning, the flame dances to the rhythm of my heartbeat. As a time alchemist, the act of burning this letter becomes a ritual of release. Words filled with love and pain rise in smoke, carrying away regrets and sorrows of the past.

This moment of transformation marks the beginning of a new chapter in my life.

With Leo as my rising sign, I carry the values of courage and boldness that guide my transformation and encourage me to face past trials, extracting from them the essence of resilience and creative power. Under the influence of my Scorpio sun, I dive into the depths of my being.

Like a phoenix rising from its ashes, my soul transforms. Wounds turn into pearls of wisdom, nourishing the creativity that lies dormant within each being. Like a gentle rain, this creativity waters the inner gardens, allowing new, luminous ideas to bloom.

The pain that has faded away releases a new energy, like an inner fire, a spark coming to life in the depths of the soul.

In this dance of elements, summer reveals its magic, offering the possibility of rebirth.

With this photo, I share my journey towards rebirth, my desire to create, and to fully embrace my true essence.

May these transformative flames inspire each of us to transcend past trials, release our creative potential, and fully embrace our own inner magic.

May we support each other on this journey towards personal growth and the realization of our deepest desires.

Eternally grateful for this moment of joy and liberation

26 of July 2023 - Arrabida

© Credit Photo Charlie Hauser